Wednesday, September 10, 2008

then it goes...

expectation
leads to

disappointment
then it leads to

depression
and finally one becomes...

"dakilang emotera at dakilang adik!"

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

life has always been like this

*sigh*

why does fate always leads me here???
why do i need to always feel like this???
have i not experienced enough??? maybe...
have i not learned yet??? hmmm..
well, maybe because i'm just the way i am...
i've always been like this
no matter how many times i've been left alone...
taken for granted...
not appreciated...
i'm still me...
the one who always take the fault...
who does the effort...
who always gives...
and gives and gives...
i just hope that time won't come that i'll be emptied
and there's nothing left for me to give...
even a little for myself...

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

back to the same old??

"we are broken, what must we do to restore our innocence?"
"i'll be just fine, pretending i'm not, afar from lonely and that's all that i've got"

february should be the love month, right? looks like it didn't work out for me that way... i had a fight with my best friend (and i'm not talking to him right now), lost trust to my sisterettes, and had a misunderstanding with my close friend (and she's ignoring me now)...

i don't want to feel like this, no one does! now that i'm starting to build a new friendship again (missing my high school friends), it breaks... am i back to being the loner in school? who sits quietly alone in the corner with my mp3 on listening to mopey songs, feeling like no one understands me, no one even cares... am i back to being friends with 'The Used' and other 'emo' bands? the lyrics above are now back into my mind... as much as i hate being emo, it's what i'm feeling right now...

there's still a part of me that feels calm and happy because there's a friend who makes me feel that way... thanks bote! you may never know how much you've touched my life... i'm very grateful that i have a friend like you... thanks for understanding me, just tell me if you've had enough... i'll understand...

i don't want my old self back... i'm hoping that i will be okay before this month ends...

Thursday, June 28, 2007

wait

when will i feel my very first kiss,

a kiss from the one i truly love?

when will i hold the arms of mr. right,

the arms that will comfort me throughout the night?

when will is say "i love you"

to the one that makes my heart beat?

when will i say "i wanna grow old with you"

to the one i want to share my life with?

when will i meet my prince charming

and live happily ever after?

when will it be?

Thursday, September 15, 2005

can this be it?

the warmth of your touch
the tightness of your embrace
the sweetness of your smile
it slowly melts my heart
it softens my feelings
but my mind is a blur
is this the feeling they call love?

Sunday, August 28, 2005

college life...

well... it's been too long since i updated my blogspot...
anyway, i'm taking up bs psychology in the Philippine Normal University... [but i'm planning to transfer school next year] college life is not easy as i had expected it... it's too much pressure and stress... luckily, i survived the past 4 months and hopefully will finish this semester with high grades...
i need to be ready for the next semester... i don't know if it will be harder or a bit easier... [i wish it will be easier]...
i miss my friends, my former classmates, and everything about my highschool life... it's true that you should live your highschool life to the fullest... you should enjoy your youthful days before everything gets to be serious... i'm telling you, college is not easy and simple... it's the time you get serious because in this stage you will build your future... and you should have a good foundation to have a successful future...
if i only i could turn back time... but.... i can't..... i just need to accept the present and live my life as if it is my last....

Thursday, March 31, 2005

finally!

finally! after all the hardwork of studying... i made it... i've finished highschool and will move up another step of my life... the college life!

i congratulate myself for having a job well done... after 4 years in highschool, i've finished it and graduated with honors...

my next goal, finish college with a degree in psychology... i'm nervous and excited stepping in to the next world... hope to pass this life...